Fiq's Grey Matter

if putting a spell was so easy...

2008-03-03T22:48:00.004+08:00

just happen to bump into this song after so many years listening...

Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyricstop
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

yeah...
yeah...
yeah...
yeah...

the girl of my dreams that i didnt deserve

2008-03-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

ever thought about the girl of your dreams you felt you could have?
only to find your love unreciprocated?

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there is no sign from her
there is no interest from her
whatever i thought were clues are meaningless
like duhh, wouldnt you think of it that way if ya like someone?

she was special, i would say
but there's someone else worthy for her love
and i'll have to understand that (so do you ttc!)
and move on as far as i could

friendship's the best offer on the platter
for i cant expect fine wine and dine of companionship

hopefully, this will be the last time i'll talk about her...
i dont wanna repeat this over and over again
she has someone else and that's final

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for now, i should look forward to other things in life.
as soon as i get a new nokia 5610, i wanna take up photography
i wanna go to the esplanade, watching performances
dream of one day going up on stage or competitions with my (still under hiatus) band

yep, things much more worth than useless infatuations

feeling good

2008-02-27T21:53:00.005+08:00

Birds flying high, you know how I feel...
Sun in the sky, you know how I feel...
Reeds drifting on by, you know how I feel...

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me...
And I'm feeling good

and yesterday i got my license. whoopie i supposed.
now i have no car
let alone that triangle probation plate

that's ok
at least i dont have to learn later when i aged

now will my mum consider a car for me?
hmmmm.....

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and i'm still affected by her though
today seemed to be quite a good day as well
till later in the day when things went awry

and he told me he was giving me an opportunity
while i was busy fiddling with my phone
an chance goes begging like an open goal

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still have tmr to look forward to
just got paid and getting a new phone too
hopefully wont burn my money up like that

stupid love

2008-02-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

she was so different from the rest
she was kind, sweet, friendly, good-looking
and hell, she swears cutely too

the FACT is, you're already taken
yet, why couldnt i accept it?
for only 3 days, i was smitten
and only a week later, i was broken

i dont know the water bottle you bring everyday
i dont know what mp3 player you use
i dont know well you do in your studies
i dont know what's your hobbies
i dont know what's your interest
i dont even know anything about you

yet, why did i like you?
maybe it's your personality
yet, it's so superficial at the same time
to like and not do anything about it

but for now, you are not important
for there are other things i have in mind
family and friends are what's more important
not rueing a missed chance to get you

i never did deserve you
even though i know you were the one i hoped for
but someday, there will be another like you
only God knows...

the FACT

2008-02-16T21:45:00.004+08:00

you're this and that...
you're unlike any other...
you're the best that i've ever known...

however, i came across that FACT...
that FACT made me sick...
literally...
the FACT itself just kills me...

it's been happening since wednesday...
depression came in mind...
the vomitting came the next...

but no, i don't blame the fact though...
for it's just me who's the problem...
it's my emotional state that's keeping me insane...

and all i can do...
is to put up a brave front...
put up an act that would go unnoticed...

even so...
i have to stop pretending...
for it would soon be revealed...

will i get over it?
will i realise something out of this?
oh well, only God knows...

like father like son

2008-02-14T23:14:00.004+08:00

now i have a new reason to like avenged sevenfold...

that guy is acually synyster gates's dad, a musician himself and now into stand-up comedy, i like how he incorporates both comedy with guitar. plus, he plays great guitar as well. i MUST say he's much better than his own son, but that's what i call EXPERIENCE.

oh yeah... happy valentine's day to all, including guys as well, though it doesnt make me gay whatsoever. anywho, i was heartbroken since yesterday. soo.... yeah.....

*gets ready noose*

writer's block

2008-02-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

is it that easy to write songs?

it was so easy to come up with songs last time. when a relative died, i wrote a song about her, ending up with so many rewrites till the intended message was gone.

i tried to write a song for an MTV contest (involving the girl of your dreams), yet it was rather impossible to write about a 'non-existent' girl to write (plus, it lacked imagery, despite good background music).

not to mention, a pretty innova JC girl i see everytime in the train to school became my inspiration, but it somehow became a song about social conformity (mainly due to her sleeping while everyone else was worked up with... work).

it used to be so easy. in fact, whatever you see will inspire you to do something. i remember last time i wrote a lot of songs about this one short girl in sec school, and it was so damn easy. that's how i got into writing songs.

so many tunes in my head and by the time i get to the guitar, all is gone. and sometimes, i got the tunes, but no lyrics. i dont know if it's work, the lack of jamming with the band or is it the upcoming F**ck Your Parents... i mean, Final Year Project. there is no time!

maybe i need a break from music right now. like there's FYP, work, driving test this month, and 'someone' i'm eyeing. by the time the hols end, there'll probably be 2 things left. even so, this FYP is gonna take up a lotta time during school, so music would have to be at the back of my mind.

oh well, passion has to be sacrificed, and sacrifice had to be made.

RP Flamed

2008-02-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

yeah, i havent been updating for some time... but this takes the cake...

friend of mine, JC happened to come across this forum.

apparently, a guy here nicknamed InnovaIQ talks shit about RP, ranging from how he was offered a job to RP, how engineering grads from RP are underperforming in his company, how 20pts in o levels are considered to be in the 'goner's category", us RP students being specialised in "wayangs", yadda yadda yadda...

i mean, come on.. who the fuck does he think he is?! the education minister? the government? i dont care how smart he is (he got a masters in engineering btw), but if have a company, will i pick one who's fucked up, or one who desires to learn?? to even learn that he's a '30 year old engineer uncle' is appalling considering the childish posts he puts up.

and just because RP has the highest cut off point (COP) at 26 doesnt mean ALL the students there are potential banana skins! my band's guitarist came from a highly respected secondary school with a o lvl aggregate people would die for, yet, he came to RP. kelvin (of yandao) has the qualities he need to succeed in the future (his response in the forum), and where does he come from? RP... i have a few other friends and classmates who have great potential, so dont count them as what RP is generally known to snobs as bullshit, hopeless cases, etc etc....

every school have their good and bad. too bad people see too much of the bad in rp. PLEASE BE MORE OPEN MINDED!

Happy birthday to SELF!

2008-01-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

today was great!
no, there weren't really presents
but it was JA's internal gig
and my band did great with the songs, though there were a few slip ups.

Clever Sleazoid was our name
comes from a band called Dir en Grey (yeah, you can listen to that song now at this profile)
i guess we were 'sleazebags' by nature
but our 'cleverness' probably excites the crowd good enough.

hopefully, i get the video up soon. and Gonch will probably be in the plans of JA once i get asri into JA!!

Steven Gerrard for Basketball?

2007-12-04T15:53:00.001+08:00

the photographer must really have a good shot with his camera.

credits to the photographer and the guy who found it..

TalentQuest08

2007-12-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

i was at www.soft.com.sg and looked at the banner ads... and i saw
this...

another jamming competition. i'm thinking of asking my Gonch-mates whether they wanna join. after all, we did have only one jamming experience, that is the powerjam 07.

back then it was horrible. there was only 2 minutes to prepare our instruments and 2 minutes to perform. we did "you really got me" and found out it wasnt suited to the crowd. my guitar wasnt set up in time, my vox was crap, the keyboard wasnt the one jolene liked, yan's guitar went out of tune, nazz's mic went dead during the performance. the only plus point, i must say, was asri's drumming.

i really think we should try again. there arent that many competitions out there, but TalentQuest is one big opportunity. the good thing is that the auditions are on 5 and 6 of jan (2 weeks before my b'day!), which is good timing considering that it's the last week of hols.

oh well, i'll see what i can do. i really want gonch to be made known around the local music scene here. for now, let me... .... zzzZZzZZZ....

12 days of christmas

2007-11-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

now now now... dont get too offended aight? this is JUST a parody and NOT meant to be racially insulting...

thanks to nasri-san for the find

Saudade (pron: Saw-dead, not Saw-duh-dee)

2007-11-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

obsession for the non-existent

Nooru-kun told me about that term: Saudade

The famous saudade of the Portuguese is a vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist, for something other than the present, a turning towards the past or towards the future; not an active discontent or poignant sadness but an indolent dreaming wistfulness.

taken from wikipedia

and i was quite obsessed with an anime character

okok... i was REALLY obsessed...

coz i was amazed by the way she looked
it was strange i felt so attracted to her
she wasnt that nice looking in the anime
but seeing her in manga just blew my mind

once nooru-kun told me he dreamt of her in real life
i was shell shocked
and i wanted one...

man...
man oh man...
thanks to this experience.....

I wanna write a song..

me? tutor?

2007-11-18T15:18:00.000+08:00

most of you seen how i'm dressed in school right? longsleeves and jeans?

i happened to be wearing them for my religious class yesterday, since i was out of baju kurung.my religious class is at the jurong block (135) where all the tuition centres are.

end of class, i walked to the lift. a lady there commented on the staircase being unlit and 'scary'. i just laughed along. getting into the lift, she then asked me which tuition centre was i teaching.

wait a minute... me? tutor!? i can never be a tutor. teaching my nephew was already stressful. yeah, i scold them for things that are deemed "easy" to me... c'mon la... pri 3 math!

and i dont think i dressed too well to look like a tutor.
i guessed i look smart enough to be a tutor. *dons sunglasses*

anyway, i told her back that i was a student from the religious centre. she then grew quiet. not that i expect her to say anything else.

damn... if only was some nice-looking girl, i dont mind she asking me that! even better, be her tutor!

sad thing is, that block is normally filled with primary school students, and i dont want any allegations of me being a paedophile.

oh well, better luck next time, i supposed =D

zzZZZzzttTTTTttTt!!!!

2007-11-14T19:56:00.001+08:00

feel like you need a haircut?

THE RECIPE!

2007-11-12T08:17:00.000+08:00

ok.. i've finally gotten the recipe from my mum!

Ingredients:
1 pack of spring roll sheets (the 50 pieces preferably, but you may want smaller numbers to test out.
wheat flour and water (the 'glue')
curry powder
curry leaves
salt

it's not as easy as i expected

Steps (rolls):
1) make sure you keep it wet with a wet towel on the stack of spring rolls. you dont wanna roll it dry or it'll break
2) obviously, roll it...
3) with the wheat flour/water combination, apply it to the ends of the roll. you dont want the rolls to open up during frying
4) cut up the rolls into bite sized pieces
5) fry to golden perfection

the powder's not easy to prepare in the first place. despite coming from the packet, it's still not dry and you might end up having uneven spread of powder among your rolls

steps (powder):
1) heat frying pan
2) put curry powder
3) add salt to taste

last step: the leaves. just grill it over frying pan and crumble them in bits and pieces.

to sum them all up:
1) put fried rolls on sheets of large newspaper (preferably straits times/berita harian/lianhe wanbao)
2) spread curry powder with a spoon
3) spread curry leaves
4) cover them up with more sheets of newspaper, shake the newspaper around
5) store in container

so there you have it! whatever you do, when your friends compliment on this tasty snack, please give credit to "shafiq's mother". do drop some comments!

Professional Profile: Pain in the Ass

2007-11-01T08:51:00.000+08:00

now to think about it, why didnt i just do it next year? like, i dont have any research, dont have any interviews, no nothing!

but to think about doing it next year, sheesh.... CE aint done, FYP to do..

and considering the fact that PP put so much stresses at the last minute, who know's what in store for FYP...

as a matter of fact, other polys have more than 2 reports to do. friend of mine currently needs to complete 4 reports and his mouth is foaming...

and my mouth foams a bathtub over 1 report.... *raises eyebrow*
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yesterday, i started my PP
the very same day, i completed it
really had to pon school just to do it

i decided to do it at jurong west library, thinking if i come early, i not only get seats and table, i get the power point as well for my lappy. then i discovered i was one hour too early (it wasnt kiasuism, i just didnt know what time it opens). when it was opened, i was appalled at the number of power points there. i managed to find one, smacked in the middle of bookshelves, with no seats... i just had to complete the PP on the floor! I JUST HAD TO!

in the end, i "survived" this "ordeal", from 9am till 2.30pm. i went home with a splitting headache, neck aches, a painful ass, a hungry stomach, the urge to play guitar at a yamaha store nearby and a completed PP. today, i feel like a cold is coming to me.

sheesh... if my PP dont get accepted....

*grumbles*

wrong! all wrong!!

2007-10-29T08:24:00.000+08:00

ok... i noticed that whenever i brought rolled spring rolls with curry stuff to school, it's been a hit in class. now the thing is, whatever recipe i told you all, that's all wrong!

here's why:
curry leaves werent used. my mum used leaves similar to the ones used for laksa.
you dont just spread curry powder. u actually have to grill it. how? not sure!!

for now, you guys can just sit back and relax. DONT MAKE IT JUST YET! wait till i get the recipe from my mum and i'll keep y'all updated!

New Born

2007-10-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

by far, the best i've seen from Muse... yeah... i know the songs in their album are pretty good, but for a modern alternative hard rock band, they're friggin' awesome when they're playing live...

busy busy busy

2007-10-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy...
yeah.. no time to update that's why...
things i do, leaving me a sigh...
oh hell... be in my shoes and you'll see...

busy busy busy...
bass lesson becoming a chore...
but at least there's something to explore...
and that's good to me...

busy busy busy...
UTs fucking killing me!
driving lessons killing thee!
someone please make me some tea!

busy busy busy...
bloody fucking antagonist...
can someone be my agonist...
to poor little me?
(look into pharmacology!)

oh hell...
all's well that ends well...
it's time i need a break...
it's time to break a leg...

P.S. oh yeah... to a certain someone, ADD ME BACK (unless something's not right)!

to whom it may concern...

2007-08-30T20:29:00.001+08:00

if you're reading this, i've got this to say. whatever i wrote here is not meant to piss you off whatsoever. i just want you to reflect and think. i dont want any cold war between us. i just want peace for the both of us.

i understood the mistakes i have done, both intentionally and unintentionally. yet, i see no reason why you should turn your back just like that. every problem has a solution. turning your back against me isnt.

"forgive but never to forget"... that's my main motive since the grudge. somehow, you just prefered to be preoccupied and get pissed when you see me. forgetting about this isnt any good because it just makes the other party feel bad, like me.

i always thought you were a confident, smart, funny guy who had "5 ex-girlfriends", yet, you werent proud of what you had, and was humble, friendly and approachable. you opened my eyes to blues music, and since then, i have an affinity to play this sort of music and learn to do pentatonics and other scales. yeah, you may sometimes be insensitive about my size and weight. of course i get agitated, but like you always said, "Patience".

but now, you became ignorant to my pleas, and i feel like you dont cherish the friendship we had before this occurred. i just dont know who you are right now, really. the guy before this or the guy after this? i understand you are agitated about things i did to you directly or indirectly, but what is it exactly, i still want to know.

i simply ask for forgiveness and find out from yourself what really bothers you about me. you want to beat me up, go ahead, but you know Allah doesnt want us Muslims to fight among each other. if you arent straight up with me, how am i supposed to know the real truth. i dont wanna find out from rudolf or hanaan, i just want to know it from you. i will NOT get pissed off by what you said, as you always stressed, "Patience".

trust me, i will change for the better, just like what i did over at RCH. and even if you just quit gonch because of me, the band, especially me, will still accept you with open arms if you decide to rejoin.

of course, we shouldn't forget about this because we have to learn from our mistake and strive for the good, not just for me and you, but for the band, our friends, and everyone else.

i'll just wait till you are ready to explain.

i'll wait patiently.

"jemputan"

2007-08-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

time to end this poetic shit for now

i'm actually happy today

it's been a very long time since i last went to a malay wedding reception. like 1-2 years or so. i always thought it's bloody boring, with the only highlight being the groom coming to 'fetch' the bride. i nvr really liked the food coz it's briyani.

but today, it was different. for the first time, i marvelled at how my relatives were surprised to see me. like they kept confusing me for my brother (who actually didnt come today)! there were also old faces i didnt recognise. the last time i see them was probably when i was still a kid. nevertheless, the food was better than expected, and there were a few "sightings" of girls, tho i must say, they are "unrealistic, undeserving targets" for me.

but hey, what's most important, for now, is to be happy...

and stay happy...

what??

2007-08-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

that's a cute ass ma...
that's acute asthma...

that's a cute ass ma...
that's acute asthma...

that's a cute ass ma...
that's acute asthma...

that's a cute ass ma...
that's acute asthma...

that's a cute ass ma...
that's acute asthma...

i want......

weird...

2007-08-08T14:09:00.000+08:00

Gibson's New Reverse Flying V:

(courtesy of Gibson.com)

Unique... but i gotta ask... will you buy it??

An Apology Letter To (ex) Red Carpet Hookers

2007-08-07T09:40:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

you have every reason to feel that i am not a serious vocalist for the band...
maybe if i put in more effort, things will be different...
i probably get too preoccupied with other things, i tend to leave out my vocal duties...
if i hog instruments, i can stop...

maybe i focused more on gonch
coz that's where i had more creative control
and i'm serious about this band
dont know why the 5th guy think i'm not

and the thing about "not my genre",
it's not that i dislike RCH
i wanted to say that JA was good because i explore genres that's not my type
but hey, i was too distracted with making the crowd laugh (besides, we didnt say the joke)

but hey, now you guys got new and current bands,
hope you guys have great success,
sorry if i offended you all,
but let's not make this break us all

random repetitives

2007-08-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

She don’t deserve this life she’s got
She don’t deserve this pain she’s got
You don’t deserve her anymore
You don’t deserve one bit of her

She just wants a simple life
She just wants her happiness back
You had to complicate things around
You had to be the thorn

Her mind eludes reality
Reality deludes her mind
It’s all your fault she’s becoming this
It’s all your fault she’s a twisted soul

And she cries every time
And she cries till she can’t even cry
Her tears go dry when you come by
Her tears go dry when you say bye